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Name: Daniel
Birthday: 12/20/1989
Gender: Male
Interests: hmm, well I like to procrastinate and I like to hang out with friends, but I don't ever get to cause I'm way too lazy.
Expertise: well, I'm only 15(as of 2005) so I can't have a real expertise on anything really useful, but ask me something and I can probably give you a pretty good opinion
Occupation: Student
Message: message meEmail: email me
AIM:  the kabookie
Yahoo:  danielquey
Member Since:
11/2/2004
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| I found out that ppl actually still read this stuff... and as is such... I shall switch back to my diary. yay!
(here's to hoping that I can keep it updated! ... starting tomorrow ^_^")
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| fuck it! lol some things are best left the way they are.
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| Do you want to know what upsets me?
Do you?
I'll tell you what upsets me!
I upset me!
big surprise, I know.... lol, I must've said this statement a hundred thousand times, but that doesn't change the fact that its the truth.
sigh, me and my big fatty head... Why do I have to think so much and so little at the same time? Is it my curse that I'll always over-think things? Is it my curse that I'll never be able to do anything normally? Not a curse? Just me then? Well now we know why I upset myself.
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and yet... I'm the only one I have that I can trust! how pathetic!
Heh! I did ask for it though, I always bite off more than I can chew.
You see, about 4 months ago I rather had a bad encounter with an old friend... (more to the point, I had NO encounter with and old friend  )
You should've seen me. lol I look back at myself now and laugh. Scrambling left and right just to talk to someone! Yeah, THAT was funny. (though not so funny as to want a repeat performance xD)
But yeah, that was fine... no worries, stabbed in the back (or front as the case may be) lol I can deal. lesson learned. No hard feelings.
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but that's when I got to thinking... If I couldn't count on that friend (who I considered to be quite close), who could I count on?
So I set myself up to find out.
with the perfect opportunity that was left by that... 'unfortunate' fall out, I decided to make it a summer project to find out.
I drew out the line perfectly clearly... me on one, her on another. When the smoke cleared (or summer ended as it were) whoever hadn't crossed the line were the friends that I could trust.
(and I realize that it may have been a shady way of getting things done... but it WAS a way of getting things done. so I refuse to apologize!)
Simple plan right?
Well there was just one hitch. Don't fish for information if you don't want to catch the truth.
Everyone. Everyone crossed the line.
I even brought my biggest weapon into this, my best friend.
What does he do? He goes BEHIND me and crosses the line... At least the others had the decency to do it to my face.
The feeling of betrayal that I got puts to shame the feeling of depression that I got earlier...
Whatever, I guess my simple plan was only to discover what "simple plan" could've told me with the song "thank you" in the first place.
So, yes. I'm alone. The only one I know I can count on besides myself is the one who I left behind all those years ago. My greatest corrupter is the only one I can trust. heh, how pitiful. ...Whatever, the summer is over now. I suppose I had better kick things back into gear.
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so yes, I'll go to her and clear things up as soon as I get the chance... relax. Lesson learned.
Some things may never be the same, but that doesn't mean that we all can't try to start over. I'll do my best to set things back to the way they were...
But, would you really want them to?
Looking back, even I cant help but disliking myself (but hey, I already said that)
anyways... yes, that's why I'm depressed! Not because of school starting, Not because of busy work schedules (although those things certainly do matter) but because I know that I have no friends that I can go to no matter what
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(except YOU... but then you and I know where we stand right now)
oh whatever, it's late, I'm sick, I'm babbling on about nothing now... I think I'll just post this and deal with my stupidity later
-peace out motherfuckers
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| ah man, work is entertaining...
demanding? perhaps.
stressing? sure.
annoying? bet your sweet ass it is.
... but fun? surprisingly... very much so!
I'm still in training and I've got a lot of practice to get in at starbucks... but I can make most of the drinks and those that I can't I can probably throw together on guess work. My main problem is that I can't multi-task. (annoying beyond belief!)
well annnnnyyyyways dear reader (seriously, WHO -the hell- reads xanga these days? lol)
I just wanted to record how things are going for my first job...
why? weeellll, when I get a kid, I'll be sure to let him (or her -sigh- lol) see what I felt when I got my first job...
actually, now that I think about it, I'm really not putting all that much of myself into these entries, am I?
lol well I guess any little bit counts. Now that I'm old enough (or wise enough as the case may be) I wish that I knew what my dad was like when he was my age... even if it was just getting to know a little piece of him.
and so that's what I'm doing: forever recording a little piece of myself for the future to behold.
What will I be like in the future? only time will tell. But time can never change the past and so here's to that little piece of myself preserved in every single little entry of my weblog.
peace out for now man,
peace. out.
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| hahaha! well I'll be a monkey's uncle (which would mean that Rebecca's kid would have to be a monkey? O_o)
I'm writing a weblog! I find that funny, and I have no idea why.
I'm totally hyper right now and I have no idea why.
I have this urge to do more one handed push-ups and I have no idea why.
I dream about things that I shouldn't dream about and I have no idea why.
lol, I guess I really don't know much about my own life. (and I have no idea why)
honestly? I haven't been writing on xanga because I've been writing in my diary... which I haven't actually updated in awhile. Everything kind of went dark for awhile back there. I gotta tell ya, lamest week and a half of my life!
oh well, no use dwelling on the past!
SO dear reader, allow me to invade your thoughts with my hopes and dreams for this summer! 
First of all, tomorrow I've got to call this lady for an interview and GRAWR I'm actually rather nervous about that... not that I'm gunna let THAT bother me! bleagh, 2ndly, I think I'm going to enter this little race against chris, andrew, and josh... even though I've got a SEVERE handicap! (hey, I'm so damned good, I NEED the handicap or else they'd have no hope! lols)
honestly? this summer I have but three main goals:
1) get a job, fall comfortably into a routine, and prepare myself for college
2) either get Elisha to stick around in the Bay Area or send her off with a KICKASS summer.
3) have a damned fun time of course! you didn't think I'd go through my summer without THAT goal did ya? (silly reader)
of course I have other goals, but those take a back seat to these ones.
*finishes one handed pushups and is considerably drained*
hey look! its 3:33! make a wish! lol
well I guess it's my bedtime then... maybe I'll update later
-peace out
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